This isn't me - Sometimes crying myself to sleep. If I'm able to sleep much at all.
This isn't me - Greeting the morning by saying "Ah shit!"
This isn't me - Occasionally having a panic attack outside of work, and having to talk to myself out loud and pray in order to be able to walk inside.
This isn't me - Sometimes going to a family gathering. Hardly saying a word, and trying not to be noticed because I feel like I will be rejected.
This isn't me - Worrying about money almost every day. Sometimes it's my first thought in the morning.
This isn't me - Sometimes feeling numb or frozen, other times feeling intense emotional pain.
This isn't me - Sometimes canceling a job interview, or social engagement because I can't face people, or fear rejection, or feel to emotionally exhausted, or to sad.
This isn't me - Someone who needs to be supported by others, rather then support.
This isn't me - Feeling like I'm stuck in a huge pit that I can't get out of, and I'm slowly sinking further, and further down.
This isn't me. This is the depression, and anxiety in my life. It has taken over to the degree that others no longer see the real me, and sometimes I can't either. It's like being encased in a thick shell. But I'm still in here, deep down inside. Hoping and praying that a miracle will occur, and my life will be normal again. But I wonder if it ever will?
Disclaimer - These examples might be totally based on my experiences, or partially, or perhaps not at all.