Random Ramblings #3

A Little Break - I didn't intend to, but I guess I needed a break from blogging & twitter. I've focused on other things like Yahoo Answers, and trying to think of what I can do besides CNA work. I'm going to start visiting blogs again soon. I just wish I knew what other type of work I could do lately. I've been feeling a bit blue. I need a change.

King Of Twitter - Congratulations to my buddy Dan from dcr Blogs dot Com for having over 20,000 followers on Twitter! See for yourself by clicking here. I'm sure that he would love it if you followed him. Dan is an intelligent, creative man. He always comes up with good information or something witty, but Dan also enjoys having fun. When it comes to business most of his experience is in communications. I would call him a computer geek. ;) I'm not sure if Dan's current goal is to make $300k or higher, but if anyone can make that much it's Dan! Qapla'! I honestly think that he has what it takes. Besides he has an Army of Stamps to help him.

Digital TV - I don't have mine yet. My neighbor showed me hers. She had purchased a special rabbit ears, antenna, but she was still losing the signal. It faded in and out. Have you had trouble with your DTV?

McDonald's "Filet-o-Fish" commercial -Have you seen that silly commercial with a catchy tune? Well it's song by Spencerport native Joey Auch, Spencerport is a village near Rochester, NY. Also his song "Come on Home" appeared in the March 18 episode of the ABC sitcom Scrubs. Hey, nice song. Way to go Joey! Now...if I can only get that silly fish tune out of my head!

I can't do this anymore...

I can't do this anymore. I can't see another person die. Another person dead. I can't see suffering. I'm used up and useless. I've seen so many dead bodies in my life time as a nursing assistant. I just can't. I can't anymore. I've felt this way ever since my 3 relatives died, 3 in a row. Especially my father. I just can't do my work anymore. My relatives don't understand. My not having work is a symptom, not a cause. I just can't do this work anymore.

Tonight I saw an old woman die on Gray's Anatomy, and I cried. I cried uncontrollably. She looked like one of my old patients, but I couldn't remember which one.

How many dead bodies have I seen? I don't know. How many people have I watched suffer? I don't know. It's been over 20 years now. I just can't do this anymore. I just can't. This is nothing new. I know this, but I bury it inside. Bury it till I forget. My family probably thinks that I'm lazy, but I just can't handle what I use to be able to handle. I just can't take it anymore. That's why I probably have panic attacks sometimes before I go into work. That's why I'm not looking very hard for a full time facility job. I've had my fill. I'm imploding and no one gets it. No more dead bodies! No more dead people! Please God! No more suffering! God, can't you hear me? How long on this merry-go-round must I ride? This merry-go-round from hell?

What can I do if I don't work as a nursing assistant? I don't know anything else but taking care of the sick and dying. This is all I know, but I just can't. I can't do this anymore. Why can't you hear me God? It's been so long. I've been paralyzed inside. Imploding slowly in silence. I don't know who I am anymore. I've become this person who just can't handle life.

Wordless Wednesday - Yahoo Answers

Have you tried Yahoo Answers?

Guess what I'm doing.

Rochester, NY Winter Summery 2009 & No Kodak Bonuses

I'm a bit lazy today. I'm putting 2 posts in one. Both are short and Rochester, New York related.

Rochester, NY Winter Summery 2009 - Yes, I know that we might still get snow, but I'm summarizing it now, and crossing my fingers. The snowfall accumulation to date was 101.7" - not a record, but it's more then our average of 89.6". December was the snowiest month of the season, bringing 46.2 inches. We didn't have a blizzard. I don't believe that we had any major storms. We had several moderate ones. We rarely had those terrible mixed precipitation combo snow/ice storms that I dislike so much. We just got a good amount of steady snow throughout the season. Well, that's not such a bad winter for Rochester. See current weather and forecast here.

No Kodak Bonuses! - I'm getting so sick of hearing economic news, but this is a major change for our area, and has made national news. The Eastman Kodak Co. has been one of Rochester's largest employers for many decades. The company has suspended its bonus, and it means a loss of millions of dollars to Rochester.

Stores use to plan sales around Kodak bonus times. New cars, appliances, furniture, big ticket items. The only other time there wasn't a bonus was in 1934 during the great depression. Click here for local news and comments on the subject.

I remember when having a Kodak, or Xerox job met that you had it made for life - good money, benefits, and job security. Sadly, those days are gone.

Friday Funnies - Arrrrrgh...

(To be posted VERY LOW on the refrigerator door, at pet nose height.)

Dear Dogs and Cats:

The dishes with the paw prints are yours and contain your food.

The other dishes are mine and contain my food.

Please note, placing a paw print in the middle of my plate and food does not stake a claim for it becoming your food and dish, nor do I find that aesthetically pleasing in the slightest.

The stairway was not designed by NASCAR and is not a racetrack.

Beating me to the bottom is not the object.

Tripping me doesn't help because I fall faster than you can run.

I cannot buy anything bigger than a king-sized bed.

I am very sorry about this.

Do not think I will continue sleeping on the couch to ensure your comfort.

Dogs and cats can actually curl up in a ball when they sleep.

It is not necessary to sleep perpendicular to each other stretched out to the fullest extent possible.

I also know that sticking tails straight out and having tongues hanging out the other end to maximize space is nothing but sarcasm.

For the last time, there is no secret exit from the bathroom.

If by some miracle I beat you there and manage to get the door shut, it is not necessary to claw, whine, meow, try to turn the knob, or get your paw under the edge and try to pull the door open.

I must exit through the same door I entered.

Also, I have been using the bathroom for years--canine or feline attendance is not required.

The proper order is kiss me, then go smell the other dog or cat's butt.

I cannot stress this enough!

Thank you,

Mom
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a LIQUID ILLUZION post

How The US Celebrates St. Patrick's Day

I was talking on Twitter and realized that the British celebrate St. Patrick's day differently then we do in the states. I thought I'd just mention the basics for those in other countries, and I welcome hearing about your traditions no matter where you live. :)

In the states we wear green colored clothing even if we are not Irish. Sometimes people wear an inexpensive pin in the shape of a shamrock, or with a saying like "Luck of the Irish" etc. This was done more when I was younger. Usually families will gather together for corned beef and cabbage dinner with carrots and potatoes. Sometimes we drink green beer (food coloring.) We have parades (Rochester photos), Some go to bars (pubs.)

St. Patrick's Day is viewed as a holiday to spend time with family and friends eating & drinking, rather then being viewed as a religious holiday.

Chicago dyes its river green and has done so since 1961. I've never hear of this tradition until this year. President Obama is from Chicago and dyed the White House fountains green. Here is a video of it. Personally I don't care for green water.

As for me I spent a quiet evening eating a traditional corned beef, and cabbage dinner, and I was thirsty for green beer. How do/did you celebrate St. Patrick's day? Here is some history. For more information click here and here.

Wordless Wednesday