I'm a 40 something Nursing Assistant who lives in Rochester, N.Y. (upstate). I am a Christian, Bible College graduate, and a lesbian. (Yes, it confused me too for awhile.)My interests are spirituality, humor, movies, music, television, news, politics, food, youtube, and blogs of course.
E-mail... awakeinroch@gmail.com
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I'm a 40 something Nursing Assistant who lives in Rochester, N.Y. (upstate). I am a Christian, Bible College graduate, and a lesbian. (Yes, it confused me too for awhile.)My interests are spirituality, humor, movies, television, news, politics, food, youtube, and blogs of course.
First of all, don't call the paramedics because I'm fine now. It was mild poisoning. LOL! It was not intentional, or I would not be writing this. .
Several days ago I was picking up some trash that was on the lawn. It included a few bottle containers. I brought them into my apartment, and emptied the liquid. Then threw them in the trash. The trash bin is a few feet away from my computer.From there on I had a dull headache and was drowsy.
Yesterday I was out all day, and when I came home I noticed an odd smell coming from my trash can. I pulled out the containers. I didn't do such a good job emptying them because hey still had some liquid in them. One was an antifreeze container. The other was a soda pop container, but had a substance that smelled like antifreeze (engine coolant) in it. Then it hit me. My headache and was drowsiness was gone because I was out all morning and got some fresh air. Apparently the fumes from the antifreeze and other liquid had been poisoning my system, because I had been sitting by the containers often. I immediately removed them, and have felt fine ever since.
I looked at my Google Blogger "Follow this blog" list, and noticed that the number had dropped overnight. Well it looks like The Daily Blonde has the answer. To fix it go to "dashboard", on the left you will see "manage" click on that. To the right of each blog if you see "anonymously", that needs to be changed to "publicly." Now you will appear on that person's blog. I imagine they have to do the same to reappear on your blog. So spread the word! If you have trouble go to The Daily Blonde and read her post. She has more information. Added Feb 25th - Babs (Beetle) just told me that..."For those that are not with Blogger. They just need to 'stop following' and then 'follow' again and it fixes things."
I've also noticed Google Blogger Blogs have been temporally disappearing. Not the whole blog, but the posts disappear. I was told that mine disappeared, and I noticed two others did also. You can still go to a post from your reader, but you have to click on the individual post, or the posts won't show. If anyone has information on that please let me know.
A) first list 10 honest things about yourself - and make it interesting, even if you have to dig deep!
B) pass the award on to 7 bloggers that you feel embody the spirit of the Honest Scrap.
10 honest things about me.
1) I've composed music since the age of 13. The music comes to me from out of the blue. I can even be on the toilet. If I don't have a tape recorder with me, I forget the song. Most of it is Gospel.
2) I have poor self discipline, but can be driven by the heart.
3) When I was young I had a crush on the leading ladies in soap operas. Looking back I realize it was a sign that I was gay. I still have a crush on Dr. Marlena Evans of "Days."
4) I took care of my mother during the last year of her life, and was with her when she died. It's one of the few things that I'm proud of.
5) Sometimes I wash my hands so much that my hand towel is soaking wet. I think it's because I'm a CNA. I don't think I'm OCD. I don't like getting COD's. It POs me.
6) I have a thing for female Libra's.... (ok Libra's reading this, you can stop smiling now.)
7) I have no sense if direction. Put me in the back yard, spin me around, and I may not be able to find my own house, ah, apartment.
8) I equate suicide with depression, and keep forget that I could be depressed even though I don't feel like putting a gun to my head. I forget that often.
9) I don't have children, that I know of.
10) I don't like the concept of time. Why is it that I can walk forward and backwards in space, but we can't go forward & backwards in time? Does that bother anyone else? Time should be like my VCR or DVD. Time is a bad idea. Everything is so final here on earth.
I've been reading several tributes to Liquid (Suzanne) since her passing. A few are exceptionally good. Leesa's is one of them. What touched me most was her sincerity, thoughtfulness, and how she was touched by Liquid's death.
One of her paragraphs has been running through my head for the last 24 hours. It made me think...."Anyway, I read somewhere that we die twice. Once when we actually die, and another time when no one left on Earth remembers us. Suzanne died on December 24th. Her family and friends, who are understandably still hurting from her actions, will remember her for a long time to come. The pain will slowly diminish, and they will remember some of the better times, the times when Suzanne made them smile."... I can't help but wonder how long I will be remembered, and in what way. .
You can read "Leesa's Stories" lovely tribute by clicking here.
A mother passing by her daughter's bedroom was astonished to see the bed was nicely made and everything was picked up. Then she saw an envelope propped up prominently on the center of the bed. It was addressed, "Mom." With the worst premonition, she opened the envelope and read the letter with trembling hands:
Dear Mom: It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing you. I had to elope with my new boyfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with Dad and you. I've been finding real passion with Ahmed and he is so nice-even with all his piercings, tattoos, beard, and his motorcycle clothes. But it's not only the passion Mom, I'm pregnant and Ahmed said that we will be very happy. He already owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. He wants to have many more children with me and that's now one of my dreams too. Ahmed taught me that marijuana doesn't really hurt anyone and we'll be growing it for us and trading it with his friends for all the cocaine and ecstasy we want. In the meantime, we'll pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so Ahmed can get better; he sure deserves it!! Don't worry Mom, I'm 15 years old now and I know how to take care of myself. Someday I'm sure we'll be back to visit so you can get to know your grand children.
Your daughter, Judith
PS: Mom, none of the above is true. I'm over at the neighbor's house. I just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than my report card that's in my desk center drawer. I love you! Call when it is safe for me to come home.
My favorite lake is the beautiful Canandaigua Lake in Canandaigua NY, about 30 miles from Rochester. Click on the photo for an enlargement. I found a local on-line photographer who has some lovely photographs of the Rochester area. PeterzPhotoz. I hope that you take a peek. ;)
To shave, or not to shave, or maybe just a trim? That is the question. No, I'm not talking about gardening.
I read an interesting post titled "Don't Beat Around The Bush" by Real Live Lesbian. In it she mentions that her best friend (also a lesbian) has met an unshaven women. But her friend prefers the smooth look. Thus the dilemma. Well, the post got me thinking. What do people prefer?
So my question to you is what do you prefer concerning women? Shaved, unshaven, or just a trim? If your not a man, or a lesbian, maybe you could mention your personal habits. Or, um, your "friends." ;)
I'm not tempting fate. ;) As of now this blog is closed for Friday 13th. My life has taken a bit of a turn recently in that I have had some negative thoughts. I think its' good to take this day off from blogging. I will avoid black cats, witches, and masked men with large knifes.
The last few days I've been in a dark place in my mind. Unfortunately, it doesn't take me long. So I made up this list. It is dark humor, morbid. I just need some humor now, and this does the trick from me. If your sensitive about suicide, or suicidal, you many not want to read this.<= odd sentence.
What NOT To Do When Depressed (Top 10)
10) Take inventory of the meds in your cabinet. Call your local pharmacies and ask him which pill combination would be most lethal.
9) Take longer then usual washing kitchen knifes thinking, "I wonder how sharp this REALLY is."
8) Go up to your republican, redneck, war vet, neighbor who is cleaning his shotgun. Tell him that Pres. Bush was no better then Hitler, and V.P. Cheney is the devil incarnate. Insist that they both should have been impeached. Make sure to tell him that your a communist, gay, and despise America, (wear bright pink, and burn the flag while talking.)
7) When taking a pan out of the oven, don't use oven mitts. Explain to concerned onlookers, "My hands are cold."
6) Call a gun shop, and ask them if they can deliver a RUSH order.
5) Sign up for knife juggling lessons, or start wrestle alligators.
4) Think of getting back with severely mentally ill ex because she is capable of murder. (The local one, not the other nut job.)
1) Eat huge amounts of burritos, with ex-large bean side order, all smothered with fiery hot sauce. Go into the furnace room and expel massive quantities of gas...then wait.
Disclaimer - Please do not try this at home, ah, or anywhere else.
No comments needed. Don't humor me, I'm being weird, ah, silly.
At The Prayer Hubs Amias is asking prayers for Suzanne's ( Liquid's) Family. Father Jerry, mother Betty, daughter Bella, and son Campbell. Amias received an e-mail saying, that "Bella's grades are dropping badly, and that she is taking it harder then anyone. They are all going through a difficult time, as you can well imagine. Please pray for them. Here are some prays you can say if you can't think of any offhand.
No need to comment. Please just pray, or send good thoughts/vibes.
Amias started a new blog called, The Prayer Hubs. She felt some of the burden lift from her shoulders when she asked for prayer for her daughter Mary Elizabeth who had cancer. It made such a difference to Amias that she decide to start a prayer blog. I hope that you continue to pray for Mary Elizabeth as she goes through chemo as well as prayer for her whole family including Amias.
You will see that Cliff from 74wixygrad is there, and myself. I hope that many of you will post your prayer requests, and pray for every post. It doesn't take long to pray for someone, and it becomes powerful when several people pray for the same person.
I finally updated my Blog Roll. I have a good group of people on it! Everyone of you on it is significant to me. I've known some of you for about a year now. I have ongoing contact with the vast majority of you. I'm not good at expressing myself in this way, but I want to thank all of you for being a part of my life, and uplifting me in doing so. It takes several months for me to add someone to my Blog Roll, so if we just meant you may not see your name on it. Everyone please take a good look to your left, and check out a group of good people!
Recently I received an e-mail from a man I didn't know. He had never commented on my blog. At the end of the e-mail he asked me to come back to God. Obviously he didn't know the first thing about evangelism, or me. I was going to delete his e-mail because I felt that he was not open to hearing me, nor did he show any interest in me as a person. But I decided to answer him anyway.
I realize that some of you may also be wondering about my view concerning homosexuality and the bible, so I'd like to share it. The e-mail referred to my post titled. "As a Bible College graduate, why can't you see that Homosexuality is a sin?" He felt that I didn't adequately state my position. Well, the main point of that post was to encourage others to study the topic, (as well as other Biblical topics) for themselves; and to give them some study tips, and tools to assist them. There are many on-line Bible study tools.
Many Christians sit in the pew listening to their pastors without truly studying the Word for themselves. So many believe what their pastors tell them, without question. I did the same thing until I went to an interdenominational Bible College. That's where I started to hear some teachings that were not consistent with my pastors teaching. I finally realized that I knew, and accepted what my pastor had taught. No more, no less. I learned in Bible College that it's good to listen to others, but ultimately one needs to study the Bible for themselves with an open mind to the Word. "Study to shew thyself approved unto God..." 2 Timothy 2:15 The key in understanding the Bible is to make a serious study for yourself, trying to keep an open mind, open heart, and with prayer. Therefore, what I strongly suggest is that you study the topic yourself. Again, I have many studies tools, and tips listed in my previous post click here. Then after that, I suggest that you read a book by Daniel A. Helminiak called "What the Bible Really Says About Homosexuality." It's one of the best books on the subject, and only 152 pages long. The listed price that I saw is $14. You might be able to find it in your local library, or on sale on-line. It would take many post worth of information for me to explain my view on homosexuality, so I will refer you to this book. It's excellent!
I know it's not Friday, but I need a laugh. Maybe you could use one too? ;)
Nice Gazongas By Gigglepixie (hey go visit her!) Two nuns are ordered to paint a room in the convent, and the last instruction of the Mother Superior is that they must not get even a drop of paint on their habits.
After conferring about this for a while, the two nuns decide to lock the door of the room, strip off their habits, and paint in the nude. In the middle of the project, there comes a knock at the door.
“Who is it?” calls one of the nuns.
“Blind man,” replies a voice from the other side of the door.
The two nuns look at each other and shrug, and, deciding that no harm can come from letting a blind man into the room, they open the door.
“Nice gazongas,” says the man. “Where do you want these blinds?”
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I do not have a hickey! by Awake
I'm doing fine, but I do not have a hickey! My nails are longer then usual, and I guess a bit jagged. Yesterday I had an itch on my neck, and scratched it. Today it looks like a hickey. I went on the bus trip today with a bunch of senior citizens, so I kept on pulling the collar of my coat up to hide it. One lady kept looking back to talk to the couple in front of me. When she did I turned my head towards the window so she couldn't see it. No folks, I didn't get lucky. I just had an itch, and scratched it.
When I went to the bar tonight, I noticed this old boy about 75-80 years sitting all alone in the corner and he was crying over his cocktail.
I stopped and asked him what was wrong.
He said: "I have a 22 year old lover at home. I met him a month or so ago, right here in this very bar!" He continued; "He makes love to me every morning and then he makes me pancakes, sausage, fresh fruit and freshly ground, brewed coffee."
I said: "Well, then why are you crying?"
He said: "He makes me homemade soup for lunch and my favorite brownies and then he makes love to me half the afternoon."
I said: "Well, so why are you crying?"
He said: "For dinner he makes me a gourmet meal with wine and my favorite dessert and then he makes love to me until 2:00 am."
I said: "Well, for goodness sakes! Why in the world would you be CRYING!"
And he said: "I CAN'T REMEMBER WHERE I LIVE!"
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Harold Lloyd - Girl Shy
Special thanks to Gigglepixie for letting me use her joke! ;) Hey go visit her! click here.
First of all, don't call the paramedics because I'm fine now. It was mild poisoning. LOL! It was not intentional, or I would not be writing this. .
