Thursday, October 8, 2009

Random Ramblings #7




I'm still using the Library computer - It's frustrating because I want to stay in close touch with everyone. I am timed so I often can not visit your blogs like I want to. :( I'm working on the problem, and hope to have my home computer running again. Thank you to those of you who are still visiting me even though I can't visit you as much now. I appreciate it!

Beautiful Summer - We had a beautiful summer in Rochester. It was the 5th coolest summer, and I loved it. We only hit 90 once! It was comfortable for the most part. I didn't even have to run my A/C.

Bees Galore - I've heard there is a shortage of bees, but not here in Western, NY. Due to the unusually cool summer we have had plenty of bees, hornets, and wasps. It's a problem for some home owners, but great for our farmers.

Opera - I've never been crazy about opera music in general. I was watching part of a crazy opera on T.V. The storyline was- ...The woman pretended to be a military man. The man posed as a women. They were cousins, and falling in love. To make things more confusing they were women in real life, and both sang soprano. ...I think my brain blew a fuse trying to process it all. I wonder if people like opera more for the totally insane plot rather then the music?

Roasting Vegetables - It's easy, and adds so much flavor! Heat the oven to 450 degrees F. Place the veggies in a large pan. Toss with the olive oil or (melted butter), salt, and pepper to mix and coat. Spread in a single layer in the pan. Roast for 30 minutes, stirring occasionally, until the vegetables are lightly browned and tender. Of course you can grill them outside too. Yummy!
Getting Help - I'm finally asking for help from Social Services. It scares me to death! Please pray that everything goes through, and that I can get $ help, and mental health help very soon. I'm not looking forward to the winter. The depression is bad now, and tends to get worse in winter, so I really need some help very soon. Please send your good thoughts and prayers. I've hit a snag.

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh my gosh, every time I get stung I forget how bad it truly hurts.

Anonymous said...

Oh my gosh, every time I get stung I forget how bad it truly hurts.

Mike Golch said...

I hope that I never get stung,if i do than I end up in the ER.

Rebecca said...

You can't get rid of me just by hiding out in the library (not meant to sound creepy, but kinda does)

We were in Rochester in April - and it was beautiful there!!!

Sending good prayers and thoughts your way - and glad to see that you are getting some help, reaching out isn't always an easy thing to do, take pride in the strength it took to reach out and build from there!

Sonnie-Dee said...

Nice to see your blog update :) i am glad to hear you are taking the step of getting help I know it can be very scary but it can be worth it!

thanks for the roasted vege recipe :) we are moving into summer but this weekend has been winter all over again so might do roasted veges tonight

kanishk said...

and glad to see that you are getting some help, reaching out isn't always an easy thing to do, take pride in the strength it took to reach out and build from there! Work From Home

Cynthia said...

I think that the very fact that you have contacted Social Services shows that you are crawling out of the abyss!

I was on welfare for a few months once when I was a single parent. Walking up the stairs to the office to file my papers that first time, I felt a curious mix of relief and rage. I wasn't supposed to turn out that way...but then again, the safety net was there when I needed it.

The other ramblings were interesting but the last paragraph is what caught my attention. I know things are going to get better for you.

I am back from my two week blog and internet fast so I have lots of catching up to do on my own blog but also others...but I began here because you were the very first blog I ever read a year ago and I care about your journey.

Greeneyezz said...

I am relieved to hear that you are reaching out for help..social services and mental help. Sometimes when we fall into a pit and are at a low point in our lives, the last thing we 'tend' to do is reach out, when in fact, it should be the first.

As far as your depression, I am assuming you, being a nurse, are familiar with the bio-chemical component of depression... dopamine, serotonin, norepinephrine, etc. a simple chemical imbalance can be a good part of the problem. Yes, you may have environmental struggles... financial etc. but if your system is not producing the right combination of brain chemicals, it *will* seriously impact your ability to deal with and solve what Life throws in your path.

People care what happens to you. Please don't ever forget that.

((((AIR))))

We're rooting for you. :)

~ZZ

Greeneyezz said...

BTW - I'm very allergic to bees so the part about the bees made me shudder and suddenly want to scratch myself.

;)

~ZZ

Awake In Rochester said...

Hi Yaya,
LOL! It’s been a long while for me, so I don’t remember.
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Hi Mike,
Ek! No fun!
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Hi Rebecca,
Hiding out in the library. LOL! ...Rochester is great in the summer. Thanks for the good prayers & thoughts. God knows I need them. It is hard reaching out. I don’t know how to explain it.
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Hi Lady Banana,
You can come over any time you want! I’d love to see you. ;) X
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Hi S’onnie,
Yes it’s scary. I’m afraid I might not get the help I really need. That would be the worst.
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Hi kanishk,
I’m giving it a try.
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Hi Girl in a Glass House,
I don’t know if I’m crawling out of the abyss yet, but at lest I see a very small light way off in the distance. ... Any more shopping trips?
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Hi Greeneyezz,
Yes, reaching out for help was last on my list, but I’m not getting better on my own.

I’m a Nurses Aid, not a nurse and I don’t know much about depression at all. That is part of the reason this is so scary. I’m going in this blind. Thanks for caring! ;)