Saturday, January 23, 2010

The Big Bad Shrink

Who's afraid of the big bad shrink, Big bad shrink,
big bad shrink? Who's afraid of the big bad shrink?
Tra la la la la ...

My first meeting went well. He seems nice, and generally concerned. He listened well and had some good comments. He was amazed that I knew why I was messed up, and could list the reasons. I told him that I just didn't know how to get out of the hole of depression. I hope he knows what he's doing. He has an MSW. I hope that his training is adequate.
He gave me simple homework that made sense, and he is going to check into winter depression (SAD) for me. I told him that I can't afford $100 for a lamp and he will see what else I can do. I'll see him again in two weeks.
I'm on an upswing. The last few months the depression has lessened. It's a huge relief because I was pretty bad off. It's not gone, (even shrink said that), but it's not as severe. Thank God! I've been in depression long enough to know that it has it's ups, and downs. It's like riding a roller-coaster. I'm on the upswing, but I always go down again. I hope that the shrink can pull me off this roller-coaster. By the way, I'm not on meds. My MD offered, but I don't like the idea.


Lady Banana said...

I'm so happy you've taken the first step and ever happier that you are actually on an upswing at the moment, let's hope the down does not come too fast or too hard - or better still doesn't come back ever!!

Rebecca said...

Hi! I'm busy for a week and miss 3 posts :(! Glad that your first visit went well and prayers that you continue on your upswing!

Oh, and Pat Robertson, well, let's just say my Priest doesn't have time for the confession I would need to make if I said what I wanted to about him.

Jaffer said...

Hello !
Long time ya ? I hope you are doing well otherwise.

I'm glad you are getting and receiving help !

My prayers are for you.

HP said...

Good to hear you're on an upswing. Hope you've found someone helpful who will help you through this and help you manage any future fluctuations in mood.

meleah rebeccah said...

Im flipping psyched you are on the upswing these days!

Anonymous said...

I love my counselor. I've been seeing her for almost 10 years.

Lilly said...

Oh its great that you are on an upswing and taking control of things. Hope the counselor is a great one and you feel comfortable. I think you are pulling yourself off the rollercoaster yourself and good on you. I know about that big black hole and it is tough to climb out of but you have made the hardest step already by asking for help. Take Care xx.